Change is a hard one to describe or to really like. I have had lots of change the last 4 months. I wonder how much change can occur so that I may maintain my wonderful sense of humor?
The truth is that I understand change-it is a natural part of life.
It seems interesting that just a few months ago at the beginning of May I felt like everything was so in place in my life. It felt perfect, I was content. I noticed that the seas of life were calm. No highs or lows just calm. It seems a bit of a premonition now to say that I just felt like everything was a bit too calm and before I new it- it all changed!
I had been accepted to grad school and a new job found me. I state it that way because at the end of April I had no intention of a job change but this opportunity came to me and I accepted. What I accepted is 6 preps and 7 classes to teach. This is a challenge but Teaching is my passion so this change is just that a change.
The Masters program at BYU has been a challenge and this week I learned that the challenge continues to grow and deepen. I don't have time to state all that needs to be done but it is a lot including projects, readings, buying books and organizing an internship. Still more change.
After those major change, I realized that I really needed to refi my home. This is a process that I started about a year ago and for some reason or another it never materialized. I happen to find myself in the right place at the right time and this summer it happened yet one more change.
My calling with the Young Women has come to an end after 13 years. This has been hard but I am accepting of this change because I know that I have given all that I have had and now it is time to grow in another area. I guess it's the end of an era... and the beginning of something else via change.
My health has had good times and not so good times. I have had a lot of anxiety recently and I'm not sure why? Hmm. . . I wonder. . . could it be all the change?
So the truth is that change comes and it is not easy. Now the sea seems rough and I wish I could have those calm times back. My only reassurance is that the truth about change is that is the only constant in every ones life, therefore I am not alone. Call me ridiculous but that gives me peace of mind. The other fact that I have dealt with in my mind all day long is that I am finally and completely an adult a change that I fought with for more then a decade but now I realize I am what I am.
So the truth about change is that it comes when things are calm and constant, that it comes to all of us and that I never have enough change when I have to buy something that is $X.07 . . . and that is the truth.
